It's amazing how meditation works in your life and you just don't realize it. Through my studies of Buddhist philosophy/psychology I am learning to be more mindful of the experiences in my life.
The frustrating part of this is my lack of meditation practice. Although I try to meditate a minimum of 15 minutes each day, I have become lazy and undisciplined, not following my hourly practice as I was doing before. While I do get in two 45-minute meditations on the weekend, it just isn't enough to make the progress I was making before. Even my weight is back up again.
As a result, I can tell the difference. Each time I sit it is almost painful to remain still. It is like returning to the beginning again. The pure agitation and nervous energy. Monkey mind that bounces playfully against the walls of my mind.
Does anyone have any suggestions on how to overcome laziness and forcing yourself to get up early to sit in the morning? Evenings are out of the question for me.